Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Trajectories

I find myself at a point when I'm asking why I am who I am.

Why was I born at this place and not in that? Things would perhaps work out a little better if I had come into this world at a latitude higher up on the other side of the world. But I didn't. And I'm here.

Why was I born at this time and not that? Perhaps I came in a decade too early. Things might work out better if I had been born in 1979 instead of 1969. But I didn't. And I'm here.

Why did I make this decision and not that? Perhaps if I had gone on with my Master's degree, I'd be a little more qualified to work in that place or gone for further studies in that place. But I didn't. And I'm here.

All senseless questions, because really, there's no choosing when and where we're born, and there's no turning back time. It's just...that.

I'm here. And that's what I have to run with.

And that's that.

3 comments:

  1. Ah, don't you just love existential questions? Hehe, I turned 30 last year, and you can imagine the kind of soul-searching I went through!

    Still, a little bit of reflection never hurt anyone. An unexamined life is not worth living, and all that.

    In the end though, it all boils down to us trying to live as best we can with what God has given us.

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  2. Have faith that things are exactly what they need to be. <kiss> I love you.

    (And if you had lived on the other side of the world, if you had taken your master's degree, how would you have ever come to love our country as much as you do?)

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  3. Te amo, querida. (Sacha, not Roy!)

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